It's one of those delicious Saturday mornings here that sometimes come to us as moms. Do you know the ones I mean? You've woken up early but the rest of the house is quiet, the family is still asleep (or in my case kiddo has been playing quietly and reading on his own - enjoying his own quiet morning!). And you can make yourself a coffee and be secure in the knowledge that you'll be able to sneak in maybe 30 minutes to a hour of personal time to read, knit, write, or just reflect.
June is a good time for reflection. I see it happening on other blogs I've been reading lately too. Must be that half-way point in the year? There's a course-correction that seems to be happening, a re-focus of energies and drive. It's a fresh and exciting time - and a positive one that I can embrace.
The last time I logged in to post I was a little bit disenchanted with some things that I'd seen happening in the knitting industry over the last little while and I wrote about it. But I didn't hit the 'publish' button. If you know me in real life or can (hopefully) tell from my posts, I'm a pretty upbeat person most of the time. And that post, while cathartic to write in that it helped me work through my disappointment, wasn't very fun or upbeat like I hope I come across.
That's not to say there isn't room for seriousness on this blog but the post sort of fell into the "if you can't say something nice, then don't say anything at all" category - and since it was a whole hodge-podge of things, I felt I couldn't pick one issue and write about it as eloquently as Karie did in her blog post about knitting as lifestyle brand. So I chose not too. While this is a personal blog, it's also how a lot of people find me in the industry and being professional is something that I take very seriously. There wasn't anything unprofessional in what I was writing, but no one likes a whiner (see "if you can't say something nice, then don't say anything at all" above).
But going through that process and making that choice has ignited something different in me, or perhaps re-ignited something that was already there but I've been pulled in too many different directions to pay attention to. I'm paying attention now! And it's exciting. I feel re-energised, re-engaged. That's not to say I know exactly how everything will move forward now, but for the first time in a while, I don't feel like I'm stuck in the same place doing the same thing because I'm too busy to do other than just put one foot in front of the other and keep moving.
I'm sorry to be vague! But I'm happy to be back to focusing on the positive. Maybe I can find some time to focus on my knitting too. Onwards!